8.29.21

"The show must go on" say so many performers.
Sometimes it is courage and strength, sometimes only a cold persistence.
but it does
it goes on

But it does not mean it stays the same.
Death changes everything
but not the rating
no one is spared (but for so long, anyways)

I suppose I have been luckier than many, in that regard.

What an appropriate time for trying out this Stoicism "thing"
It's sure better than other methods of coping, and the world sure could use a lot more stoics.

Well worth a try.

Besides, I can't bring them back. Dichotomy of control, right? 
It doesn't matter how much I wish one of my loved ones weren't suffering so bad, for this loss.

I don't often post content from anywhere but my own head but, being as I have effectively abandoned all typical social media accounts, I suppose I could post some more here. I'm not trying to become an full-blown "internet person" though. That's not me. None of us should be, really.

But, here we go; a quote:

We must give up many things to which we are addicted, considering them to be good. Otherwise, courage will vanish, which should continually test itself. Greatness of soul will be lost, which can't stand out unless it disdains as petty what the mob regards as most desireable. ~ Seneca, from Moral Letters

So, facebook account: gone

Next, a temporary separation from coffee.
My nerves could use a reset anyways, and I need to re-hone better ways to work with the energy I naturally have, and improve it.

This is gonna suck. But it will be worth it.
We must continually test ourselves!
I'll just be sure to make the first couple days ones where my husband is off work and able to help with our darling 2yr old . . . . since my patience is likely to be short.